Headaching matter!

1st post in English. Yeah, can't find a better way to express my feeling. Speechless. And more to the state of blank. What's going on? And what am I doing here? One week before my next semester starts, and I'm here still thinking, whether I should go back study.. Lalalalala~

Which path is better for me? Overseas or HELP? Honestly, I don't like our psychology department anymore, but what other choice I have if I stay local? I'm supposed to register for my undergraduate thesis today, and ohya, I just got to know it like LAST SATURDAY? BOMB… what should I do? Ohhh… I got a very long list of topics, and yeah.. My mind going blank again once I look at them.. I'm not ready! I'm not prepared! BUT I don't want to skip another semester just waiting!!!! Australia, are you giving me a reply? Why am I waiting?

I speak a lot on this matter. Friends, family, psychology admins, my agent.. What should I do? What can I do besides waiting? And what's my heart telling me? So, I am thinking of money. Exchange rate is high now, inflation is bad, and course fee for uni is raising next year.. Good, then where on earth I should get the money? Yes, my parents got! But 100k is not a small number! Education is so expensive! What more? It's not even Master yet! Well, so I'm on my own after my Degree. But, if I am to complete my course locally, YES, I will do get the money for my Master. Aiyo! Why life is about choosing?

Yea, complaining. I been trying very hard not to complain.. But well, I'm frustrated; I'm hopeless; I'm bothersome! Can't I just complain awhile? I'm confident with my application but oh well, my stupid transcript is the problematic issue. And then, I don't want to wait anymore.. It's just wasting time!

Looking at my thesis topics again… One more thing.. I need to register for my subjects as well?? Oh well.. Guess I need to be prepared to go back college.. And I think that'll settle this matter.

Written on 25/8/2008 @ 11:34 p.m.